i think thats why i cant manage to be with someone wholeheartedly. i keep looking for the belonging in all the wrong places. Lust is such a nuisance. its like, once you know what it is, you cant just change back like that. and you start to think that that connection to someone is the only connection you can have. or at least that is what happened to me. its not like im sleeping around with anyone. but the more i keep giving each person that even gives me the time of day, the more inadequate i feel. no one will ever appreciate me completely because i have give my passion, sincerity, and love to people that only want a date for friday night. i feel like i havent been important to anyone, truly important, since october of last year. i just dont feel like i am worthy of a girlfriend title anymore to anyone. i feel like i have nothing left to give.
may be deep for the first post i have had since before school, but ive had a lot going on. and i needed to tell someone
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